Confessions of Love

I have a confession to make- I am having a hard time being loving at times. How you ask? Well let me tell you what I mean by that. I have come in contact with people who used to be good, dear friends of mine- we still are friends, but things have happened in our lives that keep us and it keeps our conversations brief and not what we want them to be. I think I’ve found the problem- I have not shown them the real love a friend should show. I make excuses for it: I’m busy, They hurt my feelings the other day, I’m too tired. It’s time for me to quit making excuses and get down to the facts. I, Chloe’, have had a hard time being loving because I’m being selfish. I’m being selfish with my time, my words, my actions.

I am being selfish with my time. I would rather take care of my never ending list of things to do than to go visit a friend and see if there is anything I can do to help them. I am only doing the bare minimum of helping my own family. I am not quick to volunteer to help those in need. How to fix this- Spend more time focusing on the needs of others and how to help them than my own list of things to do.

I am being selfish with my words. I am too quick to respond with short sentences instead of taking the time to write out a word of encouragement, of prayer, of love. I have used the excuse of “Well I am busy so this is what I’ll say so I can get back to what I was doing.” Wow, I have looked back at some messages between me and some of those I know and can I just say how embarrassed I was, how ashamed of what I said in that moment? How to fix this- Stop and give those people my time. Stop and say those words of encouragement, of prayer, of love.

I am being selfish with my actions. Last year if you were to say that you needed help with something, I was quick to jump up and help you. Now if you were to do the same I would probably act like I didn’t hear you or give you some excuse as to why I can’t help you right now. Isn’t that awful? It is. How to fix this- Go back to being that way. Start helping again, whether it is a loved one or a friend. Go back to being that person friends could rely on to be there for them and help them.

Love, it has so many parts to it for so many reasons. It isn’t enough to say “I love you,” there has to be some action behind it, some reassurance of love, time spending with it. I have a lot to work on and I know of how to fix it. The Bible tells us that “Love never fails.” Do I fail? The answer is YES. I fail EVERYDAY, every single day I fail. You know who doesn’t fail to love us. God, He loves us every single second of every single day. That is a great feeling to know, that no matter how many times I fail to love someone, that He will always love me.

When I stop to think of that it makes me want to love others like He does. It makes me want to work better every day to show others love, so that they might see our Father’s love through me. If God is our perfect example of love for others then I want to follow in His example and love those around me better.

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